Recently I joined a women's Bible study at DC Metro Church. If you know me, that in and of itself is a HUGE deal. Like really HUGE. In the study we're doing new author, Kasey Van Norman's book Named by God. I must say I'm a big fan of Kasey, but I'm making this deduction based off the DVDs we watch as a group each week. Why? Because, on my own I'm really, really bad at actually doing the workbook.
In fact, even now I'm writing this blog instead of taking the time to go through the book. And why? Because I feel like I don't have the attention required to "get in the Word." I'm not in the right mindset to "truly focus and reflect." Translation: I'm distracted and I've given up. Why? Because I'm too afraid of messing up that I'm not even starting.
Sure enough, I skipped weeks one and two of the study for that very reason, and now less than 24hrs away from our week three meeting, it looks like I'm doing the same all over again.
I think we do that a lot as people. Stay away from things because we're afraid to fail if we try them.
So we use excuses. Excuses. They sound acceptable enough when we say them to ourselves. Logical even. But isn't there a point when even the best of excuses aren't enough.
The dictionary describes an excuse as, "to offer an apology for; seek to remove the blame of" and "to release from an obligation or duty."
And wow. What fitting definitions when talking studying God's Word. Instead of a good "excuse" what I'm really doing is looking for a way to get out of my obligations to God. Trying to avoid blame and come up with apologizes for why I'm not stopped and prioritized my life the way that I truly know that it should be.
By offering continual excuses, people stop trusting us, and we begin to expect less of ourselves because we convince ourselves we're doing all we can.
So instead of living in lame excuses, I'm going to live in my commitments. Or at least try to anyway.